Outwardly I feel a cold stillness.
An icy calm locks my body into place keeping the explosion inside contained
Inside there is a storm of fire and smoke raging.
Battle cries and terrible screams ring through me
I feel I am the battle grounds of hell itself within
Yet I sit quietly and drive
Screaming and Screaming and Screaming
Yet silence is all they see
She would never, she could never…
But she did.
I defended her because I believed so truly
So truly in the rite of friendship and loyalty
Loyalty, no loyalty NONE!
NOT EVEN FROM YOU!
Straighten your back, deep breaths in.
Smile.
Smile because people are watching you.
Smile because your success is more important than this temporary bump in the road
Bump in the fucking road, what a way to put it
A moment of pain is worth a lifetime of glory, a moment of pain is worth a lifetime of glory, a moment of PAIN is worth a LIFETIME OF GLORY!
I repeat it over and over and over so that raging fire within, that ear shattering battle cry won’t reach the surface.
“Be the bigger person.”
Mystic River 