Dear John

Dear John, 

I know it’s been sometime since we spoke. Perhaps you aren’t even reading this letter. Perhaps simply too much time has passed and you have moved forward as I have. Moving forward was not easy for me, but I don’t want to talk about me. I feel selfish, perhaps even self-centered when it comes to our love story, and yes I’m calling it a love story. And on the off chance that you are reading this, I just want to say…

You live within me. A little piece of my heart will always hold real estate for you. You have a permanently marked space within my heart and that will never go away. I can never be with you, but I can never be without you either. 

You are the type of person to make people feel safe and well regarded. You are one of the first people to ever make me feel held. Dear John, you are someone I wanted to plan the rest of my life with because I knew it would be the type of life I would fall in love with as easily as I fell in love with you. I never felt alone. I never felt scared, not unless… That’s besides the point and also sort of kind of the point. When you saw black I saw fortune. 

My dear John you completed the cracks of my soul but not my body. 

Dear John, I love you and I always will. Please don’t ever think there will come a day that I don’t; a day when simply too much time has passed and I have moved forward.